Monday, January 7, 2013

NewBeginnings

Hate to start this year's blogging with somewhat sad discussion, but its what is current here.

This is the second year in a row I've lost someone I knew on Jan. 2nd.  We lost a girl in our Sunday School class this year suddenly to a rare illness.  She was 23 and only been married about 3 years.  I didn't know her that well, but she has still struck a chord in everyone's heart.  You never know when your time is up.  2 years in a row I have been reminded to live each new year as it was your last.  What would I do if I knew my time was coming? And it is.

So I could't move on with the future until I've cleaned up my past.  Granted there are some messes that leave permanent stains, but I thought I'd start off by apologizing to a few people I knew I had wronged.  2 so far... and I've gotten ignored twice.   Maybe my apologies aren't good enough but I'm learning that no response is behind door #3.  (I was expecting either a "good" or "bad" response but "nothing" has caught me off guard.)  I've done what was laid on my heart - and thats all I know to do.  And I'm going to cover myself here and give a mass public apology:  if I have wronged you, I sincerely did not mean to hurt you.  I was probably being selfish in some way and I am striving to do better.  I am sorry and hope you can forgive me.  And I know that apologies are between me and that person and God... but just wanted to share what's on my mind...maybe they'll get mad at me for that and I'll apologize again. lol

New year means new beginnings.  Why am I holding onto so many material things in my attic?  So almost everything in my attic is going up for sale... and what isn't sold is going to Goodwill.  You can't take material things with you to Heaven.

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Looking forward to this year.  We are planning some important family functions, vacations, and Merritt's next surgery.  Hoping for her to grow as much as she can physically... and me spiritually.  Looking forward to our new normal: new school routines, start back exercising, and new house projects.  Looking forward to losing some weight, the end of breastfeeding Merritt (one day this year), and best of all losing some diapers!!! (surely Mattox will be potty trained by the end of  this year, right?)

So Happy New Year!

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1 comment:

Sara said...

So sorry for your loss. That always hits home. Here's to spiritual growth for all of us!